Essays

An Ode to Green Apple Books’ Lost Annex
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An Ode to Green Apple Books’ Lost Annex

It's probably the closest thing to Hogwarts you’ll experience in SF Hidden away among San Francisco's Victorians of the foggy Inner Richmond district, the veteran bookstore seems delightfully bewitched. Staircases go every which way; rooms appear out of thin air; hidden depths and archives unfold before your very eyes.  Ever-expanding, it’s a place of endless wonder.  For many years, a bonus storefront — the Annex — was squeezed, almost invisibly, between two other shops along the sidewalk. Blink, and you could miss it: a treasure trove of magazines, graphic novels, and stacks and stacks of genre paperbacks.  While the main store always felt like the main event, the Annex held a special place: a tucked-away spot for the especially perceptive, a Room of Requirement for those seeki...
Memories of a Black San Francisco, Pt. 1: Personal Great Migration
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Memories of a Black San Francisco, Pt. 1: Personal Great Migration

A three-part series about my upbringing and growing up... to see a new version of Black San Francisco During the great migration, my grandmother and her siblings sojourned with thousands of Black families. In hopes of escaping Jim Crow laws of the South, hundreds of Black folks packed up their lives in search of the promise of a better life in California. The shipyards and factories were full of jobs that could create a new reality for themselves. During the 70s in the Ingleside neighborhood where my grandparents and their siblings resided, the population was 60% Black. San Francisco used to be bustling with Black-owned businesses in the 70s and 80s according to my mother. My aunts and cousins living either in my grandmother’s Ingleside home would each know how to clean a kitchen to ...
How I Found Love and Acceptance in a Three-Way
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How I Found Love and Acceptance in a Three-Way

A story on queer polyamory in San Francisco I had a star-studded, rose-colored view of my first queer relationship: We bump into each other at a bookstore — maybe a coffee shop — with mutual friends. We exchange glances, jokes, and eventually numbers, which then leads to getting to know each other. Seems picturesque, no? Listen, it’s 2022 and that’s not how meeting people works anymore, it’s not an over-produced Netflix movie starring Vanessa Hudgens. Instead, I met my first-ever partner on Hinge. This first-ever partner was also deeply polyamorous, and I was competing for position number three. It seems odd to type this in retrospect — but it seemed so right. My first relationship definitely didn’t meet the markers for what I had dreamt up in my head. No roses at the door ...
Reflections on Bailing, Slugs, and Slips Amid a Housing Crisis
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Reflections on Bailing, Slugs, and Slips Amid a Housing Crisis

Weighing the cost of staying anchored to the Bay Area. When I turned thirty, I moved to a boat in the Berkeley Marina. This was not the accommodation I'd imagined for myself at this age, but owning or even renting in the Bay Area felt out of reach. At a couple of hundred dollars a month and boasting views of the bay, the slip in the marina was a steal. The downside about life in the marina was my boat leaked. If I did not bail out the boat within forty-eight hours, the water would creep up from the unseen hollows and spill over the boat's carpeted floor. If I went away for more than a day, I would hold my breath at the marina gates, relief flooding me when I saw the blue sail covers, the boat gently rocking in the tide. Although the boat was old and only worth a few thousand dollars, i...
Love Letters to the Apartments I Never Rented in San Francisco
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Love Letters to the Apartments I Never Rented in San Francisco

Lovelorn adventures in SF apartment hunting, as experienced by the author and her partner Those who have lived in San Francisco for any amount of time can attest to the joy of daydreaming about apartments that never were. They are the domiciles that for whatever reason evaded us, the enchanting studios — and even one-bedrooms! — we never had the chance to organize our succulents inside, the ones that got away. Over the years, I've amassed a laundry list of San Francisco apartments I may have inhabited in an alternate universe, had things gone just a little differently. So, in an act of wishful thinking and gratitude, here are my love letters to them. Oh, tall-ceilinged, sun-infused studio in Pacific Heights, How gloriously San Franciscan you were. Images of you remain burned ...
On Watching Sunsets Fall Atop Presidio Tunnel Tops
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On Watching Sunsets Fall Atop Presidio Tunnel Tops

It's an exercise in finding gratitude and absorbing enchantments — while celebrating SF’s ‘most hyped’ park in years For the most part, I've healed from the worst, most searing case of burnout I’ve ever experienced in my life — a sullen period marked by a listless numbing over sometime in June. During Pride Month, a time marked by queer frivolity and remembrance, my body felt apathetic to the stimulus around it. Everything began feeling, tasting like ash; the glossy veneer enveloping the career successes I’ve amassed over the past five years began to grow opaque. By the middle of the month, I decided to let the majority of vocational responsibilities I was juggling in the air go uncached. To see what would hit the floor and inevitably bounce back up; allow the weightier, denser,...
On Crowded Walks Through San Francisco’s Panhandle
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On Crowded Walks Through San Francisco’s Panhandle

There’s specific happiness in finding yourself in step with strangers. To be a human being means existing in perpetual dichotomy: to juggle two (or three or four or five) juxtapositions in tandem, weighing each notion against the other with muted certainty. My job — cutting teeth and grinding molars, extrapolating reflections and ideas onto the page — lends itself to straddling the line that splits introverted and extroverted activities. I’m inherently, innately, overtly on the side of the former social quality; I’m a reticent individual who can masquerade as a jovial winged insect under blips of manic conviviality for about ninety minutes at a time. But I, too, am a member of a social species. Finding myself amongst kin is as vital to my continued existence on this mortal coil as sec...